The only problem, if you can call it a problem with ‘trying to do what is right’ is that we can’t ever do that. We can ‘do’ what is right but we can’t try. As Yoda famously said, ‘Do or Do Not – There is no Try’.
This Creator centered life that we lead can cause heart ache, it can cause stress. If you are coming from a different tradition to one wrapped around the Torah you will find some of the changes abrasive but not nearly as abrasive as they will be to your nearest and dearest. To tell the truth, even now, years on, I still find myself torn sometimes between what I ‘know’ is right and ‘trying to do the right thing’.
‘Trying’ to do the right thing usually involves trying to please everyone and that can mean 4 different corners. Your Creator, your want, your closest and your environment. Recently I’ve struggled with trying to make everyone happy. Trying to find the ‘right’ answer, the solution to a problem that I really couldn’t figure out. I must have gone 3 weeks and it was the first thing I thought about when I woke and the last thing I thought about when I slept. Finally.. finally.. I prayed about it. I don’t pray nearly enough. Probably because I don’t feel I need to change. Which in hindsight is so ridiculous given the stress I heap on myself and this was a case in point.
The other option is to do the right thing.. this doesn’t involve ‘pleasing’ anyone. God isn’t ‘pleased’ when you choose to do ‘good’ rather than something wicked. He is God. He gave the Torah for the people to live good lives. Torah is it’s own reward. Struggle usually only happens in situations when escape from a problem seems impossible. Doing the right thing often results in pleasing no one and hurting/offending/alienating someone, meaning that even though you score the goal it can feel like an own goal.
My point? I don’t have one, sorry. You are on your own. Life can be hard. We all have to make our own journey. BUT we do have a fantastic capacity to heal, to learn and to start over. We also have a Creator who is connect to all things.. IS all things. So you are never alone and when things seem bleak, when times are hard, when you don’t know which way to go.. He is right there.. Get involved. Communicate. Don’t wait. Let me in. You might just find yourself ‘doing’ rather than ‘trying’.